yes.....for a moment there....i was touched..

有，那一刹那间，我有被感动到。。。

"what do we have to do to unite every malaysians here in nizhny novgorod? to put aside our difference, to fight hand in hand for the common goal, and to celebrate the joy and victory together, and to appriciate the success as if it was our own..."

as a committee member of malaysian student association here, this is the question we've always been wanting to answer....

"perhaps a NIzhny GAmes 2008 would do the trick ??"

it was a big project for us nizhnians which involved many people, and we couldn't possibly have done it without the teacher's support.

i am not going to talk about how far is it from our place, who is participating, how the food sucks, how the condition of the hall is, which economical and political problems we faced.hell, i'm not even going to talk about the athletes and how well they played....

but this post is indeed about nizhny games...

i remember back in march i said in my post "numbness" that i feel indifferent to my surroundings, and that i dun think anything can surprise me nor touch me anymore....

by touched, i mean 感动(terharu), a word no other language can describe better.... it's a feeling that makes you wanna cry, makes you shed the tear of joy, but at the same time, you are too happy to cry....so basically ur face will look ugly and distorted when u have that kind of feeling....

anyway, nizhny games gave that feeling back to me....

i am far from being able to stand on the court to play and fight for the glory of our uni...but as a nizhnians, i thought i would play a role as a supporter for those athletes who played....

i could never forget how everyone cheered and shouted for our teams...esp on the first day during the volleyball match. we waved flags, stamped our feet on the groud, waving pom-poms, making noise with empty bottles filled with coins....and shouting "go, nizhny go nizhny go go GO!!!"

i dunno why, but at that moment, i really felt like crying.....i was so touched by the high spirit shown by our nizhnians then....

everyone, from juniors, to seniors, some which you expect would be studying at home by that time, some which you didn't know that could be so "open", some which hardly ever talk to each other, and some even met for the first time, stood together, on the same row, opposide the opponent's supporters, shouting, and cheering for the players who are playing on the court....sometimes we even got too carried away till we forgot that the game is still going on.....

for a moment there, i actually had the "pseudomorph" that nizhnians are very united....coz i never expect to see everyone so semangat at that time.....

i believe not even me, but most of the people who were cheering at that time were surprised that they are doing something like that at that time too....dun deny it, coz i could see it in everyone's face that they are surprise themselves, coz this is not a scene that u can see everyday in nizhny...

it's like thinking that we are crazy and "uncool" by shouting and jumping around with excitement, but somehow it's soooo cool when everyone does it together with the same tone and frequency....and for once, we are happy for being so crazy......

for a moment there, all the supporters' heart is all towards the player, beating at the same frequency, hoping that they could really score well, cheered when they managed to give a good shot, and felt the pain when the opponent scores...praying to their respective God that the players would win the match....

there's a feeling like we wish we could channel some form of "energy" to the players, so that they could play better...that if we could, play for you when you are exhausted....we hope that the players could feel the energy and keep the spirit high to finish the games...

i am going to say this as least sissy as possible, but for a moment, i actually find those athletes, be it males or females, more handsome and pretty like never before..... 

speaking as the no1 skema guy here in nizhny novgorod, i can tell you that the satisfaction of being able to be part of the event, even as a supporter, to be able to experience the spirit of togetherness, is magnificant beyond comprehension. it's a satisfaction different from the 5s u score in your exams....it's something you won't understand if u dun experience it yourself, and i pity you for missing it....and i am even sorry you don't realise it....

of course, all that was for "a moment"....

soon, there was comparison on who shouted louder, and those who did not shout as loud was claimed to be not as supportive. and then there was complain about ho the food sucked, the money crisis, the suspicion on where the money went, the complains on who's doing what wrongly, the fingers pointing at each other to avoid responsibilities, the fight for credit on who played the biggest role....

all of that gave me a rude wake-up-call from the pseudomorph i was having.........